I’m Remy (This Post May Cause You to Hate Me)
December 30, 2015 46 Comments
(Disclaimer: This post may tick you off and cause you to unfollow me. I ask that you don’t.)
He knows what he wants and he goes for it.
Even though there are no real emotional scenes in Ratatouille, the film makes me tear up quite a bit when I watch it. Because it’s a movie about me.
I wish – like really, really wish – I could be like all the other people around me. I wish I can just be content eating trash and living the status quo. I wish I can just be happy with my day job, my lot in life, and everything else that’s been handed to me.
But I’m not.
I may not have aspirations of being the greatest chef in Paris, but I have goals of being the best damn writer in America. Cut me open and I bleed stories – the NEED to tell great, solid, impactful stories that can make the world a better place or change the way people think.
I can’t not write.
Problem is, I’m like Remy in another way.
(This is where the above disclaimer applies)
I’m done pretending to be perfect and awesome. Right now, I’m choosing my writing over my family. I’m not forsaking them. I’m making my highest priority my success.
Because if I’m successful, then they will benefit directly from that.
If I’m not successful, and I lose, then yes, I’ve lost a lot.
But it’s a risk I’m willing to take. I may not be here in five years, and I don’t want my family to know need. I want those royalty checks coming in for them long after I’m gone.
I try to explain it to my wife this way: “Let’s just go through a couple months of crap and grime and sludge to firmly establish myself as a successful writer rather than drag it out for year after endless year after endless year.”
I’m not saying I’m right. I’m probably wrong in this thinking. I’m not asking for advice or reprimands or counsel. I’m sharing this for those of you who also feel like the odd rat in the colony but are too afraid to do what it takes to do what you want.
I’m doing it. Are you?
My upcoming books:
- Profit Over Patients – The true story of a patient advocate doctor who sued Big Insurance and won against all odds.
- These Great Affects – An emotionally-driven young adult novel about a girl who falls in love with a boy – after he dies.
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