Life After Abortion
September 12, 2013 19 Comments
Due to a high volume of interest (both favorable and adverse) in my past post, “Here’s the Great Thing About Abortion”, I have asked blogger Kristy Mapp to giver her first-hand account on the subject. You can see more of her writing on her blog, Oh-mag.com.
I considered myself an average girl as far as promiscuity and drugs were concerned. I never really thought that consequences would happen. I just wanted to live life for me, my way, and for my benefit. When I found myself pregnant at 19 I was shocked. My boyfriend and I decided the best thing to do would be to have an abortion, because we didn’t want to deal with a child – nor have one out of wedlock, and we certainly were not ready for marriage.
I remember coming out of the Planned Parenthood feeling good about my decision, but also feeling sorry for all those women who were there for their 2nd, 3rd, or even 12th abortion. I thought, ‘How selfish of them. There was nothing wrong with them that they should be throwing their children away like that.’ My boyfriend picked me up and we went and had lunch and then went about our lives – we never talked about it – didn’t even think about it really.
At 24 I had a self induced miscarriage, and then just 5 months later another abortion. This time I didn’t think twice about what I was doing. All I knew was that I was basically ‘good’ for not bringing a child into the world that would be fatherless. I even coerced a friend to have an abortion, telling her that having a child would ruin her and her boyfriend’s lives. This was the reality of my situation, of mynature. I cared for myself, and told others to care only for themselves. It’s a ‘me’ kind of world we live in.
I was always thinking of me… caught up in the politics that said I needed to have a stance on something like abortion. When I met Christ my life changed. I do indeed have a stance now, but it is not based on what I want. It is based on what God says is truth. He is the one that gives life, and He is the one who takes it away. What matters in life is not our feelings or stances on political or even moral issues. What matters is what we do with the truth God gives us.
What good does it do to wonder about the past – if things had been different – or even to wonder about the future – what kind of life could this child have? Are we the ones who plot the course of life? How can we say that by deleting a person from our wombs we are doing them a service? Each life is a miracle. Science cannot re-create it without stealing parts from that which already has life. There is no such thing as a man-made, self-replicating machine. Each cell contains information that was put there by …. well, what do you think? Does it really matter what you think?
While I killed my children God was watching. He knows what it is like to lose a child. His son made a decision to die – to be made a part of this wretched world – hated and shamed, to take my place in punishment for all my sin. Jesus, who committed no sin, died and took upon Him the wrath of God for the evils I committed. He died. He was buried. He rose from the dead – defeating death and now sits at the right hand of God making intercession for those who He died to save. How can I sit by and watch as people who say they know my creator fight for the allowance of sin? I cannot.
The word Christian means ‘follower of Christ’. How can we follow Him if we are not doing what He commanded or said to do? Arguments will get us no where. Truth is all that matters. Pick up your cross – your life – and follow Him. Read His words. Be like Christ. Share the Gospel. We cannot change the minds of people who are lost. But we can share the words of Christ, who is the only way to salvation. Our stories may be starting points, but His words are what change lives.
For Further Reading: “Please Don’t Kill the Child“